The move, however, is going to bankrupt me. Now, that's a little scary. I don't think it's going to be a problem for me to ask for monetary help from my parents, but it will be slightly embarrassing. Ever since I got my internship at A&F last May, I haven't had to ask for money at all. Not even once! Note that I do not pay for my cell phone or my car insurance, however. (And I'm really not sure why mom and dad insisted on paying for these things when I was saving so much) But I did pay for all my gas, rent, bills, car stuff, fun stuff, student loan payments, AND I've dropped nearly $6,000 of my own money simultaneously on school tuition and supplies. Now that my rent is going to triple, my internship, which pays very well for what it is, is going to quickly start to feel like poverty.
And I graduate in about fifteen minutes. So, it's time to start looking for a real job. I have very few doubts about my qualifications for an entry level tech design position, but I do worry about the quality of my portfolio and finding steady work. If at all possible, I would absolutely love to stay at A&F. It's unlikely that I'll ever have a more interesting job in tech, and it's also unlikely that I'll ever work in such a unique environment again. As far as I'm concerned, I have the best job in the world right now, and I really don't want to let it go! Anyhow, that brings me to the issue that... I have no idea how to go about applying for a real position. For design jobs, A&F sent recruiters to the school and the recruiters gave the students a design project... which was due a couple weeks ago. I sincerely hope that didn't apply to tech. And I sincerely hope that the people I work with don't think I'm a moron, as a good recommendation would be useful. I *KNOW* I'm the quiet weird girl that does no work for the actual A&F chain and sits in a corner, but I'd like to think that I have at least come across as competent. In the end, I think it's just going to be a matter of whether or not a position actually exists for me.
The interns in other, larger departments (I literally work in the smallest department in the company, which is nice, but extremely isolating.) already know whether or not they'll have jobs there after college. Since I've worked there full time (no one else can say that) for so long, the other interns expect me to stay, but the fact that I don't already know (and that I have to sign a lease tomorrow) really, really worries me. I mean, if everyone else is being *offered* a job, is it bad that I have to *ask* for one? Or is it really just circumstantial?
Anyway, should I find the balls, the plan is to ask about it tomorrow. Wish me luck.